Epic FAIL!

Ummmm yeah you guessed it, I got distracted and paused this. Okay I got depressed and lazy and unmotivated. That's how the fat kids do it. It's hard and it hurts and I am lazy. Well I got a gym membership (I think my mom tricked me into it) and a personal trainer. I went a few times, thought "Wow I feel fantastic!" and then quit. Yep lazy. So she got ahold of me and said "We need to talk" and now I'm going to try again. Do I want to be a failure? A FAT failure no less? No! I'm gonna try again. And again. And again if need be. Even coming into the Holidays I am confident (today) that I can make it. I'm going to (try) and be accountable... here. I blog on my other blogs fairly regularly. Okay so here we go (again).
Weight: FAT
Height: 5'8"

Here we come Here we go!
I worked out with Hollie (trainer) on Monday morning. I forgot to eat breakfast and was dehydrated and well... it was ugly.

It's Thursday. I...... got up this morning. We'll see if I can do SOMETHING when I get off work. ~jeni

Days 1&2

Well I got p90x and decided to use the fat burner diet guide and am using phase I. 1800 calories a day. Day 1 went well.. Pretty sore and had to break quite a bit but I did okay. Day 2 was a little harder. I had gone to the pool and swam 17 laps and then did the Plyometrics. My legs shook and shook and they hurt so bad. I made it about 30 minutes. I also have a foot condition that makes jumping almost impossible but I did the best I could. I pushed it past what I could comfortably do and managed to work up a healthy sweat. I guess a couple of friends are worried I'm overdoing it. I have to give all I've got or I'm going to get lazy and quit. I also swam 12 laps on day 1. Kept my caloric intake at under 1800 both days and am feeling really good. Except my thighs and abs are in alot of pain.

April 2010

I just ordered p90x. I have decided to blog about my adventures with p90x like other people do. I am not average build I am severely obese. I hate my body and I figured if I told people about what I'm doing I'd be less likely to quit doing it. Because I don't want to be the fat girl who can't stick to anything. I have several friends who use the product and I just have to do something. My body is out of control. I am going to post before pictures... but not yet. I have to see some difference is being made first. Cause otherwise people will get sick reading my blog. :) Well it shipped yesterday so we'll see what happens when it gets here. Wish me luck. And PRAY!