Clean Eating

Sooooo, I picked up a book of clean eating recipes. Clean eating is going to be tough for me. I LIKE my starches and white sugars and white flour. I like dairy and I LOVE cheese. This clean eating thing is not a part time diet. It's the way we SHOULD eat. Less processed foods, frozen dinners, NO fast food, etc. I just don't know about this. Stupid processed food tastes good. (mostly) I am going to try. I'm very worried, and I don't feel like I have anyone I can talk to about it. Substituting turkey for beef is not my idea of a substitute. I'm a meat and taters kind of girl. Another big problem I see is that I work 12 and 36 hour shifts and I am EXHAUSTED at the end of the day/shift. The last thing I want to do is have to cook too. I will have to do almost all meals ahead of time for the week, which I hate doing because I never know what I want to eat on any given day. I'm finding EVERY excuse NOT to do this and trying to reign it in and just do it. I will. I can.

I was watching the show on TV called "HEAVY" the other day. I don't know if you've seen it. These obese people (like me) are taken to a "resort" of some kind... my mind said "FAT CAMP"... for one month. They are in Boot Camp type training for that month. I can't help but to think, I could use something like that. I need someone in my face everyday to get me going. I don't have that. I try things, get discouraged, give up. I want to succeed, but I'm having trouble. I want to lose weight, but it is so difficult. And people expect to be able to see things quickly. That's just not realistic. Just because I say I want to lose weight doesn't mean I will. Alrighty, well I am armed with a list and some recipes, and I will see if I can kick it up a bit.